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reflections after a new baby

It’s been a year since my lawsuit against Better Birth of Utah (and Suzanne Smith LDEM) for abusing me during childbirth. I’ve healed enough from that experience to decide to have another child, this time under the care of an OBGYN. I’m happy to report that this time around I was treated with dignity and […]

Better Birth knows out of hospital birth kills babies, they just don’t care to warn mothers

I think I under stated the importance of the latest health department data that shows that out of hospital birth has more than double the mortality rate of hospital births. Not just because the owner of Better Birth of Utah (Suzanne Smith) sat in on the review of the data and managed to suppress any […]

Utah health department: Home birth kills babies that would otherwise have lived

Originally posted on Safer Midwifery in Utah :
The Utah Health Department released a study on home birth, and it mirrors the findings of the data released in Oregon several years ago by Judith Rooks (CNM). According to page 10 of the document, neonatal deaths in home birth happened at a rate 2.3 x the rate…

Its not just me- other women have been mistreated

Originally posted on Shame On Better Birth:
I wanted to make a post specifically to show allegations from other people who have had problems with their experiences at Better Birth. I have linked to this information in other posts but it is scattered throughout and not well organized. I will edit and update these if…

What is SLAPP?

according to ” SLAPPs are Strategic Lawsuits Against Public Participation.  These damaging suits chill free speech and healthy debate by targeting those who communicate with their government or speak out on issues of public interest. SLAPPs are used to silence and harass critics by forcing them to spend money to defend these baseless suits.  […]

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Better Birth’s latest legal action against me

UPDATE 6/17/2015 Better Birth was ultimately awarded 166$ by the court. Here is their latest filings for court costs. I blocked out the names of my therapists in red, and their paid expert witnesses in black. They are the names of people that Better Birth chose to retain at ridiculous expense, and none of them actually testified […]

Didn’t end up winning

The judge in the case said I cannot prove that the behavior of the staff at better birth definitively caused my damages. One of my therapists told me after the trial that this is the common outcome of sexual abuse lawsuits that she has witnessed. She said its tough, a medical practitioner can usually demonstrate […]


Originally posted on Words By Dreah Louis:
Failed a million times, left the soul feeling sad, succeeded finally, realizing failure was the teacher

Better Birth delivers another blue baby

Another day, another blue baby.  This blue baby with no pulse was also born at better birth awhile back, perhaps even in the same tub. I have no idea why home birth advocates post such horrifying photos from water births and gush over them.  I’ve seen more smiling moms holding blue, floppy babies in tubs […]